Good News

In one minute

a chaos of words

torpedos to ears who listen for

good news

and the talons of deception feel like feathers to them

The rest of us claw our eyes out

afraid to look

and it is seen as a revolutionary act when we stare

straight on

It isn’t though.

he opens his mouth

and tricks the flies to taste the nectar

and they die with a smile

for something sweet.

A Scary Time For Men

A Scary Time For Men.

 

I ask him a question, tepidly.

Because I know I will burn up when he answers.

I don’t want it to be like that.

“What do you mean…?”

He is like granite standing there

He used to be like clay

But now his suits and pocket squares define him.

And I am still here like an anchored balloon

Floating around in the same spot.

 

“I mean what I said, it is a scary time for men”.

I try to not let my words leap out and wrestle him.

I don’t want it to be like that.

I try to take the rage and fury out of my voice

And distinguish the flame he sparks in my entire body.

I’m running out of vision.

 

I am 14. Or 15.

I am a little girl.

“I am in a position of power”.

My body jumps as the car drives over an uneven street.

“She dresses inappropriately, what if she accuses me of something?”.

The man next to me smells like metal. He is old.

The street lights slither over him sometimes

But he’s just a dark shadow next to me.

“I’ve made complaints about her clothes and no one has said anything”.

It’s just me and the old man in the back seat.

He rubs my thighs and I sit quietly because I don’t want to get in trouble.

He rubs my breasts and I’m too scared to move.

“It’s just a scary time for men, that’s all i’m sayin”.

 

I raise my voice and now the whole house is quiet.

“You’re not listening, so I’m done talking”.

He closes the conversation.

Like a man closing his briefcase at the end of an unsatisfying business meeting.

I can’t stop yelling. Or being furious.

“It’s okay that we disagree sometimes”.

He says this calmly.

I can feel that man’s hands crawling over my body like a spider.

I see the lights over his stomach that hung over his pants.

His face hidden in the darkness of the car.

The roughness on my thighs. Hard labor old man hands on my little girl body.

 

I scream and yell and feel unhinged.

I want to hit something.

Kick and scream.

I want to cry

I still want him to take me serious.

I am a tornado of emotions.

I have not seen the old man in the car since.

I have ran away from that moment.

My lover’s fear put me back in that car.

Then his fear locked me in.

I wanted to hurt him for that,

For ignoring my pain.

This is a scary time for men.